I'm Only Human......God is Still GOD

This past week was an especially hard one for me, as I was wrestling with an issue that I believe I am not alone in.......

Let me back up for a moment and say..... I love my crazy beautiful never dull life!

With that said....Have you ever struggled with being a great career woman and a great mother?

This has been a struggle of mine for many years, however lately I feel pulled in 1000's different directions. In an ever changing, and fast pace environment that we live in...I find it normal to be "chasing the carrot" around and around. I recently started working for a company that is very much a race to the finish line type of work environment, and I found myself struggling to keep up. Long hours, little sleep and not seeing my kids started to become the normal for our household.

I hated it...

This past Thursday I found myself wrestling with what was more important. To have an amazing career with the potential to make "lots" of money and hardly be home; or have a career that gives me a better home/work life.

So, what do I do when I am stressed....Head to the Gym!

As, I sat in the hot tub listening to my music and my mind racing with all these different thoughts. A song came on (I know I have used lyrics before in my blog...however its one way God talks to me so go with it). Here are the lyrics to the song HUMAN by Christina Perri

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human, yeah

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human, yeah

I'm only human
I'm only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
Until I've had enough

'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human, yeah

Now researching this song I discovered it is about a dating relationship, however for me in that moment it hit me like a ton of bricks. 

For me it was about my relationship with God...I am sitting there searching for the answers and how I need to figure out how to do everything and be everything when I am ONLY HUMAN! I felt God telling me...STOP Sarah...I made you human not ME....if I wanted you to be perfect, if I wanted you to be everything I would have made you....ME! So, stop trying to be anything more then exactly what I created you to be.....Beautifully and Wonderfully made in My Image....not ME. 

So, to all the women out there struggling to keep the work load in check, the house in check and the family in check....to the women out there who when they are at work, are feeling guilty for not being at home and when they are at home feeling guilty for not being at work. STOP IT!!!! 

YOU ARE ONLY HUMAN.....Beautiful in every-way....Strong in every-way and Unique in every-way... but let GOD Be GOD...Let Him handle things....

My life verse continues to be Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord." 

My prayer for you this week is that you see God's plans in your life and that as you head into this crazy beautiful life we live in, you never forget He made us Human for a reason. 

God Bless,

Sarahlynn